Even by recent standards, April has been a tough month.
Three students contacted me on LinkedIn asking for interviews to help with their projects. Now, I’ve always been happy to help students – I was in that position, many years ago – but this time I had to decline. And not just because two of them were podcast interview requests.
I’ve stepped down as Chair of my favourite (and only) Air Cadets squadron. And I’ve given notice that I’ll be standing down as Treasurer / Budget Manager elsewhere at the end of the year.
There are other reasons for the last two, but in general… there’s nothing left to give.
You’d imagine that being one of the long-term unemployed I’d have plenty of spare time. Actually, what time I have is spent counting every penny, trying not to spend what I haven’t got, changing contracts around to save a bit and watching my savings dwindle to the point of not being able to pay the rent shortly.
Add on the various charitable causes my friends are running for, and you might see why I’ve been feeling guilty.
I was raised Catholic, so being made to feel guilty is not a new thing! The self-inflicted version is even worse though.